He has answered my prayer.

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A Prayer

My God, My God,

How I need You in this hour.

I am restless, needy, and dried up.

It is a dark, cold, and loneliest of night's.

I need You near, 

Side by side,

Hand in hand.

 

Can You speak to me?

Can I rest?

Can I lay my head upon Your bosom.

And have Your Mighty hand slowly, softly, stroke my hair?

And whisper, "I am near."

That everything will be okay.

"You have no cause, nor need, to fear.

You're not alone,

though often times it seems."

But gently,

"I am near

    

                I am near.

"Never to leave,

always to stay, close by your own side,

in the night, in the day."

My Jesus, I need You. 

I know I am thine own.

Come quickly, Lord

before I perish.

Or drown in this storm.

Come close, draw nigh.

to comfort and bring cheer.

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Synne

Really missing my Synne today...

Yesterday Andrew and I dropped her off at the airport in St. Louis for her long flight home to Norway.

It was hard to say goodbye.

We also got to meet up with Ashley & Asa, Joseph, Benny, Michelle, and Tim & Whitney

(Who were also taking Tim & Whitney to the airport for their flight home to BC).

We had a great time together over lunch and coffee before having to say goodbye.

("wait! not ready for a picture yet!")

(AsaBug)

(how I shall miss my Norwegian sister!)

(Smile, for a last picture with Aunt Whitney!)

(SynneDear)

- Forever with each other in our hearts, though we be thousands of miles apart.

 Forever sisters. -

(Our quiet drive home)

"The Lord is the portion of my inheritance and my cup;

You support my lot." 

(Psalm 16:5)

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Psalm 16

"The Lord is my portion and my cup;

You support my lot.

The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;

indeed, my inheritance is beautiful to me.

I will bless the Lord who counseled me;

Indeed, my mind instructs me in the night.

I have set the Lord continually before me;

Because He is at my right hand I will not be shaken.

 

Therefore my heart is glad

and my glory rejoices;

My flesh also will dwell securely.

For You will not abandon my soul to Sheol;

Nor will You allow Your holy One to undergo decay.

You will make known to me the path of Life;

In Your presence is fullness of joy;

In Your right hand there are pleasures forever."

(Psalm 16)

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Me and Sunny

Just having a grand time with my Norwegian bloke Synne. And feeling guilty about not updating my blog for so long. A new post will be coming soon, I promise! So much has been going on in my life recently, and on February 16 (this Saturday), my older sister Madison is getting married! Please be praying for us all as we learn to let go and readjust to life without her in the home. Thanks! And may the Lord bless your evening!

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Fill me with Your mercy

drown me in Your grace

Let my heart be filled

with promises and praise

All I need is You

and all that I desire

is to dwell in Your house

all of my days

 Forevermore

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There is a more excellent way.

There is a way that leads to life and peace.

And it is possible to love life and see good days.

 

Oh that man would stop his strivings, stop his vain wanderings

and searching for things that will vanish in a mere breath.

There is so much more.

There is rest and peace and joy abounding, unhindered, everasting.

 

That man would see that his ways are evil.

That he would not participate in the unfruiful deeds done in darkness.

And come to the Light.

 

That we would humble ourselves and pray,

confess that we need Him.

There is no other life apart from Him.

Anything in this world that offers peace is counterfeit.

Anything in this world that offers joy is passing.

And all that will ever stand the test of time is Christ alone.

 

Why waste our time on worthless fools gold?

Why quarrel over stupid things that are passing?

 

God is sovereign and His ways are just.

And in His way is life and peace more abundantly.

We don't have to go full circle to find Him.

We don't have to waste our whole lives and find out He was waiting

with open arms all along.

We don't have to rack our brains searcing for the mysterious truth.

 

It's here.

Waiting for us.

Like an undiscovered treasure chest full of gold just waiting to be received.

And this is the purpose that we live.

To live in all that He has given.

So go open up the Word.

Open up your heart.

And drink deeply.

This Well won't run dry.

Because God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him.

Not in empty things this world has to offer.

So thanks be to our God. 

May He receive all glory forever.

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When we stumble and fall.

I am so thankful for life.

So thankful that I can breath.

I'm so thankful that I can trust and rest.

 

Because when I (or try to) hold life in my own hands,

it falls apart. Makes a mess.

And every time I realize what I've done, even when I think it's too late,

and I offer that mess up to Jesus with open hands,

He is so willing to even take it and make it into something beautiful for His glory.

 

Things look messy for me, because self seeks that glory due to Him for itself.

Because "I" want to be known.

"I" want to be appreciated. And "I" want life to evolve around "me".

That, my friend, is ugly. That's were it turns to messy.

And that is were I find myself way to often.

But you know what?

That's the mess that Jesus has promised to take.

So that we don't have to deal with it any more.

 

Wow.

 

He's willing to get in and dirty. For me.

But not for my glory. But for His glory.

And I dare not take that glory away from Him.

It is a fearful thing to take the glory due to God. It's His glory.

All that "beauty from ashes" in our lives that we sing about,

That's HIS glory.

 

 

So many times in my spiritual walk I fall, drop to the ground, roll in the mud for a while.

And when I cry for help He always reaches out and puts me on my feet again.

But very often, I forget to cry out, not only to be placed on my feet, but to be washed clean again.

I justify the fact that I don't need to be some priestly-white-washed christian.

And Oh. It can be worse then falling.

Worse then wallowing in the mud of concious sins.

The devil comes at my dirty mind.

And he stirs it up. Makes it cloudy.

And confusion sets in.

And I start to ask. And to doubt.

"Why did You place me here?" "Where do I go?"

"Am I being deceived?"

 

It's a scary place to be when we don't desire to be washed.

Washed by the Word.

 

Cry out to be washed by the word. Immerse yourself in scripture.

Pray.

Even when it feels that there is a brick wall between you and Jesus.

Believe me, I've felt that and been there.

But never stop praying.

Ask Jesus to give you the desire for Him, for prayer and a love for the word.

And remember all those tmes just like this in the past.

I remember many struggles and trials in my life that I have gone through.

Times that I have given over to Him and He's turned it into glory for the Father. 

And I see His indiscribable mercy.

The mercy of God.

And every time I forget, and even conciously move away from Him,

 He is and always has been, and always will be

FAITHFUL.

 

"Even when we are faithless,

He remains faithful,

For He cannot lie."

 

And you know, remembering those times of His faithfulness,

it enourages me in this season.

To wake up from my stupor.

To cry out for guidance and walk in His grace He's given, believing and trusting in it.

So once again I offer this broken, dirty, messy life to Him.

To find some way of getting more glory for Him.

And I choose to rest in that knowledge.

 

The Lord has been bringing this verse to mind a lot lately,

and it is just what I want to do...

"In repentance and rest is your salvation.

In quietness and trust is your strength."

 

Because...

 

"God is most glorified in us when we are most satified in Him."

(John Piper)

 

Therefore I can face whatever comes, because I know He lives.

And it's Him that driving this ship.

I know that there are many more falls, more wanderings, and more trippings up ahead...

But I choose now to keep my eyes on the Prize.

And hold on.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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And how should I start?

The trip to altogether amazing, awesome, wonderful, God-filled, and memorable.

I just can't get over it.

(and pray I never do)

So thankful that I got to go, and already can hardly wait to go back.

We did so much. It might take some time to write all the memories.

I will try to write what we did every day and share plenty of pictures.

Thank you for all your prayers.

I have been so so blessed!

God is good-all the time

All the time-God is good

and that is His nature, WOW.



I am going to be writing about the Uganda trip mostly over at my other blog.
(Sorry that there is not much there yet, but I will try my best.
Also pictures are soon to come, so stay tuned!)
Feel free to become a member and follow my travels wherever the Lord takes me!
It is:
ugandaproject612.blogspot.com

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Mweraba!

Wow. So I realize that I have not written or posted anything for a very long time.
Its been really crazy lately, but the Lord has been doing some amazing things in and through my life.
He is such a good Father! I am so thankful that I can trust Him with every part of life.
Tomorrow afternoon I, along with some others in my family (and team), are headed to Uganda, Africa.
It is amazing how it all worked out for us to get to go.
So we would really appreciate as many prayers as we can get.
I want to be a willing vessel for Him to use in whatever ways that please Him.
This is not about me. It about sharing Jesus with those in darkness.
So won't you join me in drawing others into the Kingdom through prayer?

Also I have another blog that is for updating you on our trip to Uganda.
I am hoping to include pictures and testimonies as soon as i have the opportunity.
Feel free to drop by.

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